MUSIC

Fell flat on my face but I’m fine now

Big mad god put me in timeout

Staring at a wall might empty your mind out

(Know thyself offline just sign out)

Put that thing away you on it everyday

Waste your life away get on your knees and pray

Imma need some space imma need some grace

Slower sober pace water on the face

In a state of stupor loser laze around in booze and drown

Sounds kinda stupid now

high time to recoup right now

Bake bread make soup right now

Be proud of the truth right now

disperse this crowd and regroup right now

Remove curse on the crew right now

full heal long rest and improve right now

Make a lot of money is the move right now

Everybody get back in the groove right now

Get your ass back in the booth right now

Cut your ass loose and refuse right now

Cat cow right now

______+_………

I’m sorry can’t help you

I wish i could help you

———/———

—{you hurt me i hurt}—

////////

Lapping up attention yah!

Ramping up retention yah!

Lurking in my mentions yah!

(Salt water sipping in self obsession)

Stare at your reflection

Refreshing and regressing

Teach that loneliness a lesson

With anonymous confessions, yah!

Digital depression hits different

Name searching session I miss him

Critical of all of existence

From the comfort of my kitchen

Chatbot be my assistant

Say this but say it different

Read this tell me whats in it

{(I don’t read books I skim the synthesis )}

Scared of the silence and drunk on the violence

It’s not an addiction refill my prescription

Every single second need something to listen to

fill up my vision with heroes and villains

comments and descriptions relatable rants

ritual killings original sinning

Manichaean memes

I know information wants to be free

But why’d it put me in a prison?

______+_………

I’m sorry can’t help you

I wish i could help you

———/———

—{you hurt me i hurt}—

////////

Fell flat on my face but I’m fine now

Big mad god put me in timeout

Staring at a wall might empty your mind out

(Know thyself offline just sign out)

(( Taking the pain away ))

(( Just be a heart to break hard to break ))

Take a quick swipe at me, I won’t duck

Anymore anymore anymore

Come to the knife fight with me, try your luck

Are you bored? Are you bored? Are you bored?

And I won’t rest until I eat your shame

I’ll give my best to beat your case

No don’t confess you’re not to blame

(( Taking the pain away ))

(( Just be a heart to break hard to break ))

Don’t wipe my tears away

I’ll wash your feet and kiss your face

You need someone to feel your pain

Okay. If that’s all it takes

Then I won’t rest until I eat your brain

I’ll tug the lure and bite the bait

I can’t regret my best mistake

(( Taking the pain away ))

(( Just be a heart to break hard to break ))

Don’t let me go just let me grow

I need you the most at my worst

Put down your phone just hold me close

And I’ll fill your heart till it bursts

x2

Recorking the bottle pour glass down the sink

I wanna remember every whisper and wink

Memorize your every little giggle and blink

(((sobermore)))

You look like a model but you talk like a shrink

I wanna Harley Quinn you tip you over the brink

knock you up off your feet and into my drink

twist your back foot and awaken a kink ( )

cause you seem so sane but I remember you’re crazy

I intend to activate it drag you back into Hades

Spoil all your plans penetrate you with babies

I said marry me I didn’t ask you to date me

moderated by responsibility and success

returning to the left due to current events

we debate if we should blame the neoliberal state

then admit that neither knew what neoliberal meant

She kills my computer fumbling a flute of bubbly

She does it so adorably all innocent and clumsy

Years ago this shit would put knots in my tummy

now I got Apple Care+ and a lot more money

while it’s getting repaired I buy a new one right now

my art is archived on hard drives and up in the cloud

I don’t skip a beat and I notice I am proud

wow I’ve known you since a kid it’s been a while

__________

You aint got no doubts when I’m in your mouth

Say the very worst thing that you can say

It’s all okay

(being yours is my being

without it I am not.)

Tell me all your doubts open up your mouth

Baby there’s no thing that you can’t say

it’s all okay

(being yours is my being

without it I am not.)

__________

I’ll be a man for you. ((tonight))

Feels right while making a life

You always come back like I’m flying a kite

I always come back like you’re riding a bike

If you know me then you know that I’m never rolling dice

If you know me then you know I’m not picking for the price

Everybody knows I’m not everybody’s type

the fuck I look like tryna please a person I don’t even like

Wake up feeling purposeful putting in the work

Make up game surgical hit em where it hurts

Pray backstage bout to put em in the dirt

Fuckin with my business bitch you higher than my skirt!

Everybody and their mom knows that I know my worth

Burn it down on principle before I let you in my purse

Sieving blessings hidden within every curse

Ready for the best and prepared for the worst yah!

Crash on my couch and catch a gourmet breakfast

24 Karat gold X on my necklace

Well rested known and respected

one small next step left to perfection

Ten long years both approaching our primes

Ten long years growing ever intertwined

Ten long years aging like a fine wine

Ten long years its about fucking time so

I don’t think about it now I just know! Yah!

Predator on the prowl Lets Go Fucking Go! y=Tah

Feel the full force of my soulbody flow

Rip open the veil make you cry and let you grow

You loved me as a loser as a drinker as a druggie

As a sinner through the wringer as a phoenix and a winner!
You felt it over dinner

saw you melting in the winter

the eternal burning ember

yearning ever for the timber

((timberrrrr))

[i love you!]

You aint got no doubts when I’m in your mouth

Say the very worst thing that you can say

It’s all okay

(being yours is my being

without it I am not.)

Tell me all your doubts open up your mouth

Baby there’s no thing that you can’t say

it’s all okay

(being yours is my being

without it I am not.)

Building model ships of Theseus in pricey wine bottles
Broken heart shards rattle round in a bauble
Four-way play date weak knees wobble
Unplugged button-mashing but the game controller hollow
Used up all my luck we already hit the lotto
Should’ve stayed home in our rose gold goggles
Burn the precious treasure map direct to El Dorado
Sommelier of sorrow
Swirl don’t swallow

Like a lactose intolerant gargling milk
Silly spider can’t find a fly drowning in silk
Wielding worthless weapons whack my head with the hilt
Pray to God for guidance He said “Do what thou wilt”

Bloom, burn, wane, wilt
Bloom, burn, wane, wilt
Bloom, burn, wane, wilt
Bloom, burn, wane, wilt

I drank in bed instead of working today
I don’t like working without you

Admittedly I’m often at the limits of acquitted
A hair’s breadth miss at a culpable conviction
I knew when you kissed me it could cause a bit of friction
between my life now and the one I wanna live in
and yet I’m always there and it’s always my decision
Exercising discipline in boundaries and conditions
Incubate the wisdom in your cynic inhibitions
Diminishing returns on innocent intentions

Like a lactose intolerant gargling milk
Silly spider can’t find a fly drowning in silk
Wielding worthless weapons whack my head with the hilt
There’s no revelation it’s just do what thou wilt

Bloom, burn, wane, wilt
Bloom, burn, wane, wilt
Bloom, burn, wane, wilt
Bloom, burn, wane, wilt

You’re right, you win
You’re right, you win

Pretend I didn’t mean it, I’m embarrassed I believed it
Never separate my passion from my reason
I remember everything from my dreams
But nobody else cares what I’ve seen only me

I survived but I’m bleeding
They say I should do some healing
But it’s flowing hemophilic
I can never let it go
I miss everybody that I ever got to know
I don’t get why I’m so difficult to stick around and know
Never learned my lesson should’vе known it from the go
I get lots of love but only whеn I do the show
Everybody deserves love but you’re not everybody
(Are you though?)

Pretend I didn’t mean it
Embarrassed I believed it
It was real I could feel it
I remember everything from my dreams
I can never let it go
I didn’t need it
Embarrassed I believed it
It was real I could feel it
I remember everything from my dreams
I can never let it go

You’re so beautiful, be careful with that
Take that trust and make it bend till it snaps
That hurt lots I wasn’t thinking of that
See you soon and then you don’t come back

Love never fades I wish it would
You don’t wanna see my face understood
Can’t claw that back now I think I’m good
Let down last time in my life now I’m living like I should
Holed up in the sphere and make a lot of things
When I venture in the world got gifts I can bring
Lay low lid tight lips locked till I sing
Miss it miss us miss you and everything

I didn’t mean it
Embarrassed I believed it
It was real, I could feel it
I remember everything from my dreams
I can never let it go
I didn’t need it
Embarrassed I believed it
It was real, I could feel it
I remember everything from my dreams
I can never let it go

Everything will be alright
Darling hold on tight
Bright red wine wearing all white
Ride the carousel all night
x2

Good morning rise and shine
Choose how to use your time
Sober tryna get my life in line
Meditating tryna train my mind
Loneliness hitting just right
Perfect circumstance to write
Productivity hitting new heights
Never bounce back my advice
See your name up in lights
You’re a star name your price
Must admit the pays quite nice
And I’m fresh out of will to fight
Bitch get off my mic off my dick out my life
Only I know how to blow on my dice
Two nat 20s perfect strike

Everything will be alright
Darling, hold on tight
Bright red wine, wearing all white
Ride the carousel all night
x2

Licking all my wounds decorate my room
Reminiscing bout your hand in mine
Never needed more really wasn’t sure
Read your letter and I almost died
I think maybe I did

Oh we are so over
Never in my life have seen closure
This time I think I kept composure
That’s the practice baby I am so hurt
I don’t blame nobody but me
You’re too kind I am a disease
I got wants you got needs
I just gotta learn to eat my greens

Everything will be alright
Darling, hold on tight
Bright red wine, wearing all white
Ride the carousel all night
x2

Triple Triple Triple X! Triple X!
Triple Triple X! Triple Triple X!
Triple Triple Triple X!
Sex drugs death bitch what you expect? (What you expect?)
I’m so suspect
Sex drugs death I’m so suspect (What you expect?)
What you expect?
(it be)

-x2-

///“|”\

Triple X!
Triple Triple X! All my exes vexed
My ex giving me neck hickey on my neck
X tat on my neck
My ex sending me texts
flexing on her ’til my death
All the minds I fuck perplexed
Try to abide by my requests
Mess with their heads
Mooching booze from friends mooching booze from friends
While I watch wills bend to my benefit
I cut off friends over no offence
Silence dunks them in the deep end
Keeps them on the defence
Only speak when tweaking
give a fuck about your grievance
I don’t make amends I don’t start the steps
I play pretend stay in the depths
Love that fucking dress
An entity of sex and I aim too impress
so I’m sensitively giving head the best
Bend her over my bed
Grasping gasps for breath grasping gasps for breath
Always leave them breathless in an existential reflection
The pleasure is a misdirection for my inattention
Take affection with some doubt
Notice when I’m reaching out
I’m on my seventh stout
Tomorrow back devoutly distancing myself

+++++

Triple Triple Triple X! Triple X!
Triple Triple X! Triple Triple X!
Triple Triple Triple X!

Sex drugs death bitch what you expect? (What you expect?)
I’m so suspect
Sex drugs death I’m so suspect (What you expect?)
What you expect?
it be

-x2-

++—++—++

I came to make perfect shit and get dirty rich
I’ll flirt with your bitch I’ll flirt with your bitch
I make skirts lift I make shirts rip
I got a big dick it hurts when I hit
This tongue licks this tip flicks and these fingers twist
I kiss lips I grope tits I grip hips
I can stick quick I can fuck slow
Go gentle or I choke
See I consider this a show
So I perform perfect and go
I know how to play my role
How to party how to charm souls
How to strong arm control of art and turn a star to gold
Armed to the bone I’m ardent
causing harm in foes discharging alarms
My arms folded I don’t need no arm to hold
Smart and smarmy prose
Alcoholics never vomit tolerance like armaments
Fuck an armistice I’m sowing carnage bitch
I harness this I market this
See two cute gals with me in the middle
Guys go wild to the beats and the riddles
With X in my gums and my psyche sizzled
You watch while your little thumbs timidly twiddle!
Polish my gin refill this
What I want next?
Single shot? Double? Bitch guess
Gimme Triple! Triple! Triple!

/////}}}}}

Triple Triple Triple X! Triple X!
Triple Triple X! Triple Triple X!
Triple Triple Triple X!

Sex drugs death bitch, what you expect? (What you expect?)
I’m so suspect
Sex drugs death I’m so suspect (What you expect?)
What you expect?
(it be)

-x2-

xxxxxxx

I’m so suspect

Wrote a hunnid songs in my sleep
Only one I don’t delete
On a hunt for fresher meat
I gotta stunt and never breathe
How deep can perfectionism seep?
Obsession flexing on me
I can’t even fucking breathe
(I just)

-2x-

[—-+-—]

Enter The X bitch
Lеgs restless appetite endless
Stress I stress I stress I stress
Never destress I retch
Sever loose threads
Never let up till death Yes
Never digress or rest Yes
Never cease to impress
With these I test these flecks

Cannot stop an alcoholic
Cannot knock a workaholic
Cannot knock it while you buy it
I cannot keep quiet
Words ain’t in my fucking diet
Don’t deny it don’t defy it
Don’t imply you match my pride
The moment you think you know why you fall behind my mind
Out of my graces out of sync with the greatness of my grind
No relationship too sacred for me to cut communication
Evading love and lamentation
long standing bonds wane for just one song
Rejecting any bond from this instant on

***)))___

Wrote a hundred songs in my sleep
Only one I don’t delete
On a hunt for fresher meat
I gotta stunt and never breathe
How deep can perfectionism seep?
Obsession flexing on me
I can’t even fucking breathe
(I just)

-x2-

…….>>>

Once last year I done let my heart fall
They got hitched with my friend without a courtesy call
I did not lift a finger I ain’t spew any gall
I’ve been dead silent since baby
We don’t talk at all we don’t talk at all
Rake in truth I got a new hall
I’m making moves like U-Haul
I fuck it up like Ru Paul
I shoot and hit and sink cue balls
I rave like a loon but I’m too in tune
so you tune in too no human immune
My intuition and influence
is on mystic shit sipping a frigid brew
it’s cartoons against crime news
Eyes glued I’m eye candy bitch I’m soul soothing
So abused so misconstrued
Christlike and cute
don’t refute my reviews
redo the shit and keep me amused
it’s no use! You’re old news
if I told you and you refused

):(:):(:(

Wrote a hundred songs in my sleep
Only one I don’t delete
On a hunt for fresher meat
I gotta stunt and never breathe
How deep can perfectionism seep?
Obsession flexing on me
I can’t even fucking breathe
(I just)

-x2-

[/../../]

I am Prince I don’t wince
I don’t flinch it’s really Prince
Perfectionism been a bitch
Perfection been a bitter bitch
I am Prince I don’t wince
I don’t flinch bitch I’m Prince
Boy I outwork the devil then repeat don’t even rinse

-x2-

Bars bars bars for days
Keep me paid and take all my change
Drive me insane and keep me okay
A public pride and a private shame
From within the brain an external grace
Got me my off my face and saving face
Keep me debased and show me my place
Put me to sleep and keep me awake
It gets me off to get way too sauced
Then work to the bone and surpass my boss
Don′t lose my tongue don’t slur don′t cough
I incur real talk go hard go off
Love a scotch I’m a fucking Scot
I love molly rocks my fate is locked
Love Bukowski I love the guap
Still on that vodka on thе rocks

(_==+==_)

LCBO last minute though
Slip through the doors moments bеfore close
You need your dose don’t sugar coat
She don′t need my I.D. she knows the ropes

-x2-

<><><><>

Imma step in the store and only get a little bottle
Spend under 20 dollars for today and tomorrow
Then I′m sipping shots in the bathroom of the McDonalds
Took mere minutes to morph into a monster

Took a lash from my dad back when I was bred
And from that gash bled bread spending like I’m nearly dead
I refuel my empty veins with two bottles of red
Waking up to cracked glasses and stains beside my bed

/:/:/:/:/:…

Bars been my holy might
Fuck a Christ I owe bars my life
The feast of a full bottle of wine
The treat of a vodka cold on ice
Three peat a shot then a sip then a chase
With a glass of OJ that′s spiked no waste
I get fucked with haste expensive taste
Got excessive pain I suppress so strained
Depressed and drained so I drain this drink
I want fame and a shot and not to think
Impressive ways I perfect my plays
If you open my gate and enter my space
Expect self hate deflect your grace
I detect warm hearts and freeze any trace
Out of fear it′s fake I break and obliterate
Incinerate eviscerate faith

[}[}[}[}[-=>

LCBO last minute though
Slip through the doors moments before close
You need your dose don’t sugar coat
She don′t need my I.D. she knows the ropes

-x2-

{xx_xx}

Imma step into the store and drop another hundred dollars
Put that on my credit card as to not alarm my momma
I am quaking in the day bear the weight of all my karma
Carrying the shame of my late grandfather

Took a lash from my dad back when I was bred
And from that gash bled bread spending like I’m nearly dead
I refuel my empty veins with two bottles of red
Waking up to cracked glasses and stains beside my bed

{+}

Fuck a Christ I owe bars my life

-4x-

Twist this knife roll fixed dice
Work all day drink all night
Twist this knife roll fixed dice
Work all day drink all night

:-2x-:

I’m a fan of fear
I fuck with chandeliers
I like expensive shit
I like surpassing peers

-x2-

+{+{+{+{—+}

Dip back into the Matrix
Stiff glass of whiskey chase it
Stay acting like I’m famous
Stay acting so abrasive
Fixed path and I embrace it
Kick ass of those adjacent
Kick back awfully wasted
Lit lax lost faded
Mask off when the flask out
When the flask out back off breathe soft
Don’t disturb him with a cough
a reasonable call anything at all
Don’t get involved
Don’t muster the gall
Don’t fuck with a god
Don’t trust in your luck
Don’t fuck with the odds
I’ll smudge your confidence with a smug calm
Disarmed disarmed
Disarmed disarmed
I decide what you think of art
I decide if you played your part
I decide if you think you’re smart and
I decide if I hurt your heart
Hell bent on calling shots
My empathetic thoughts get lost
Numb empathetic thoughts with shots
I’m so frenetic I’m so unethical
So incessantly eloquent
The eminence so evident
So insensitive so objective so
Let the record show check the method
Protect your neck and step correct
Stack cheques of human stress
Cash that shit at your expense

‘:_><_;’

I’m a fan of fear
I fuck with chandeliers
I like expensive shit
I like surpassing peers

-x2-

([_(xxx)_])

I like brands and fear
I like lavish beers
I like to brandish anguish
I examine tears
Top tier can’t see
can’t hear inferior fucks
stuck in their fears
Don’t talk gear mere man
You ain’t got the band to justify dropped bands

Causing some problems with you and your guy
Gossiping bout me been easy as pie
Stay running gambits but I never lie
Fucked up I’m famished I’m ready to die
It’s wonder so friendly till jealousy enters his eyes
Pucker up your envy heavenly hits to your pride
Cluttering smothering fettering haunting your mind
Stutter defensively while I be bettering with every stride
Best my investors I flex on my mentors
cementing my legend immortal immoral important inventor
I am the centre don’t step to the spectre
dispelled with a wave from my sceptre
threatened cause your contribution pathetic
pompous and pretentious
but spec the perfection stay out of my mentions

!…!…!

I’m a fan of fear
I fuck with chandeliers
I like expensive shit
I like surpassing peers

-x2-

-{+}={+_+}__

(Fools Gold Fools Gold)

Swipe souls with a thought feel the bite of the cold
On sight of the roll of the dice you will fold
I don’t fuck with the odds
I don’t do what I’m told
Create like a god twist fate like a god
Make prophecies and take praise like a god
Craft craze like a god rage like a god
Arcane like a god rain flame like a god

Stay running gambits and running the gamut
My ego expanding your input is banished
Audacity outlandish causing casualties and insecurity
Stirring deep a panic murder your understanding
Disturbing your purpose my firm in fervent certainty
Affirmative my fans are firm so fucking stan me
Don’t need it but I’m not asking I’m demanding

((Fools Gold))

Compelled to correct the perspective of a skeptic
I am the antiseptic as expected
An accented exception excepted eclectic and excessive
Extend it to the extent you can’t access it
Push past high class into perfection
I liked it the best of the best kid I confess

([Fools Gold])

Money fame and enraging foes
Dragon in his den I hoard it in droves
Remain on your toes tote total control
Get scorched if you forage close
Smoke from my nose got a torch for a tongue
and a legend to be told
Fool’s Gold Fool’s Gold
Never felt flames that felt so cold

A threat to your heart and a threat to myself
Don’t pray for a god I do not need help
You don’t see the belt but you see the welts
You don’t see the real me till I’m drunk as hell
You don’t know thirsty you don’t self critique
You don’t drink don’t talk don’t act like me
You can tackle a craft but I master shit
I amass passion I take brash action
And build factions destroy distractions
Dash habits that don’t fit the fabric
Fix my mask and add lashes to my back
A vast stash of objective facts
This track is to cast the fear of God
On cats like low tier trash
You ain’t gotta like that
I don’t fuck with you brats
I hit a home run and I break the bat
My stats are maxed my light is dashed
I roam this stage like I’m draped in a sash
I model to thе planet always all day
Like a bad bitch on Snapchat
Titillate affiliatеs dissipate the doubt
Raise that snout while dissenters shout
Don’t worry bout shit except what I’m about
The wine and the power and the fear and the clout
I say deep shit cause I’m a fucking scribe
Offer my mind as a fucking bribe
I like your art I don’t like your pride
I’m the fucking find of a lifetime
I’ll take your mind and make it mine
Mine potential make it my pride
Fulfill you distill you pose and film you
Instil my will then kill you

—_—-__—_—-

Damned to the fate brand burned on the nape
-x4-

Look me in the face maintain pace
Meet this gaze fall short of my grace
-x2-

_—_—_-_——_

Capitalize my crisis monetize my life bitch
I don’t remember writing this
Lightning strikes in abundance
My plight perfect for indictment
Frightening friends and inviting critique on my judgement
But I can’t stop I’m plugged into the new covenant
Accept my death and express my sin
God is art and I’m Jesus Christ
I have holy might cause I can pay the price
Beyond reproach beyond advice
Bet my whole life on loaded dice
On a holy mission to silence all my critics
with eloquent admission
Integrity integral to my existence

xx|:x:|:xx

Damned to the fate brand burned on the nape
-x4-

Look me in the face maintain pace
Meet this gaze fall short of my grace
-x2-

xx:::x:::xx

Don’t talk to me now I am drunk as hell
Don’t ask how I am man I am not well
Can’t extend my arms in this tiny cell
I only make beats as an excuse to yell
I was but a child when reclusiveness fell
I was but a boy when the death bell knelled
I enjoy sucking you in as well
I employ my suffering to sell
Can you not tell? Can you not tell?
You don’t see the belt but you see the welts
Don’t ask how I am man I am not well
Don’t pray for a god I do not need help
Mastered how to speak mastered how to spell
Now I cast spells and I revel in my hell
A threat to your heart and a threat to myself
But explain a death threat to a bombshell

Home isn’t here I’m home when I’m far go

_,,,({+~+})…_

Drop a little pill now I can see
Now I can breathe
Locked outside sobriety
I don’t move my hand to find the key
I let the pride disguise the plea
I don’t want it enough to be finally free
I push friends away and pull feelings deep
And just listen to my wine confide in me

…_…

Parachute a pinch of ivory in a sky of glee
Scared of what my mother might think
of her son dosing so violently
But it’s better than dying and unsurprising
I’ve never had eyes that focus fine
Never been quite right
This my tithe to the hell riding inside of me

=_=_=

Disconnected I cannot sleep can’t locate peace
Anxiety still reigns supreme
It’s not up to me that I can’t breathe
And the planet spins incessantly
So I act okay and it’s testing me
No father figure to lecture me
Sorry that I took too much ecstasy

<><><>

In the depths I can’t even speak
I can’t be reached
Bottling in it makes too much sense
I’ve hurt good friends when the damage leaked
When the barriers breached and I flail completely
My failings freaky falling freely
Flaying loved ones with this beast deep in me
At this point no one notices when I’m tipsy

‘….,,,….’

I let her in and I became a leech
That slope too steep
I let myself graze grace and hear
my thirst for self worth groan and creak
Obsess over her opinion of me
I don’t like to care I don’t like to need
I don’t respond to her for an entire week
Just to see if that might make her leave

{<-“”->}

Validation’s all I really seek
just hate saying please
This sense of self fucking obsolete
I don’t fuck with myself so I must compete
If I get everybody else to begin to agree
Then maybe I’ll too start to believe
I plant the seeds then I dig em right out
And sit in silence and uncertainty

—__—__—

So it goes
Your toes are cold
Those feet are frozen you’re afraid to expose
The pent up passion and pain and prose
Weaving your woes to a perfect pose
Sip this slow you know you struck gold
You’ve craved this might since mere years old
You can taste you’re close
Kiss the coals on your lips
You’re thick in the throes
Stay bold son stay burning bold
Release control your paths foretold
Know nothing else could ever fill this hole
So spill the truth in it’s whole
Undergo the process feel the toll
What the fuck you looking at poll for?
Are you on stroll or have you hit your stride?
Right! I am on the roll I been holding out for all my life
So cry wolf cry yikes
All you might like I will pay that price
Lose comfort to win this fight
As I roll these loaded dice
All in all in all in nah!
I feel like I’m falling
The floor caved in and I’m bathed in my sins
This rage within’s finna break my skin
Binge to slow these raging winds
This stain on my brain cannot be cleansed
Dear God if you really meant all that shit
Love me for what I am
I refuse to pretend to repent to a man of omniscience
And if you don’t get it motherfucker you’re not Him
Ain’t pierced my skin in good time that’s a win
My mother’s glad that I’m not dead that’s a win
I don’t need to listen to your untethered opinion
Scorching hot takes on the morality of men
with your personal spin I will do what I must love
Fuck what you think if you’re intimidated by greatness
Go ahead shrink
What you know about molly?
What you know about the drink?
Don’t say you feel me until you’re dangling from the brink
What you know about anxiety and never ending rivalry
With every legendary idol while your mind is spinning wildly?
Psychosis don’t strike when the timings nice
It sends your mother into fright
and stretches your friendship tight
Depression doesn’t deign depth it makes you not wanna write
Anxiety is not cute it makes you scared for your life
I’m overcome with insecurity and spite
Alienated close confidants to grow traits that I don’t even like
I try to quit the booze feel pretentious yell sike
Speak a sentence yell sike
She tells me I’m precious even if I don’t impress her yell sike
It never goes away it never ever gets to fade
I can do the pretty face I have learned how to wake
I have learned how to move at a humanoid pace
Maintain this dam so it never quite breaks
I have no choice it’s death or the chase
I cannot go to waste
I need to create
I wanna be okay
but I need to be great

You wanna be cool you wanna be somebody?
I’ll show you how to party
Wanna lose your friends? You wanna know nobody?
I’ll show you how to party
You wanna feel like you’re not in your body?
I’ll show you how to party
You wanna feel peace only when you’re on molly?
I’ll show you how to party
You wanna never once feel pride in your work?
I’ll show you how to party
You wanna never be able to quench your thirst?
I’ll show you how to party
You wanna spend life decorating your hearse?
I’ll show you how to party
You wanna be special? Wanna bear this curse?
I’ll show you how to party

X!

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